Writing workshop – Another life

I’ve been looking for a lot of Mummy blogger for work this week and I stumbled across the brilliant Sleep is for the week and the Another Life writing workshop post. Below is my entry for prompt number five. “What is making you feel under pressure right now.”

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I walk into my house to see post on the door mat. Just another reminder that Ben isn’t there. Further in there’s coats, clothes, more post and craft equipment strewn across the arm chair. I’d be in trouble for that. Ben’s gone snowboarding for a mate’s stag do. It was nice having him gone at first, now I’ve descended into a miserable, untidy heap of apathy.

The kitchen is no better, half empty plates of left overs, washing up that needs to be done and crumbs. So many crumbs. I know I need to wash up and make this place look presentable, if not for myself them for Ben who gets back in a few days. It’ll do it tomorrow.

This is me, back from my 9-5 day job only to stress about tidying up – I know it’d be easier if I just did it – and to have to get on with the mounds of freelance work I’ve given myself.

At first it was simple, day job, write some novel, promote a fashion site. Easy.

Now it’s: Write some novel, reply to roleplays, tidy up, promote fashion site, write two articles.

The articles are interesting to write and I get paid a lot for them but sitting at my laptop I can’t bring myself to write. Every piece of creativity seems to be sucked out of my life. I know it is because I’m feeling lonely and the house is a mess yet I can’t bring myself to tidy.

On Saturday with the impending return of Ben I’ll get my arse into gear. I’ll be able to tidy up and then I’ll be able to write. I just wonder what my life would be like without him. I’d live in squalor never being able to get anything done.

He is my muse.