Confessions of a fat chick

I’ve put on weight. I managed to get to just under 15 stone, got so excited and then put on ten pounds.

TEN POUNDS

What the hell?

I suppose that’s why I held off on blogging for so long. I’m back over the 15 and a half stone mark and I feel like a whale. I’ve lost my confidence and as a result cannot stop eating. Willpower when it came to food never used to be that difficult. Now I’m not even thinking then going out and buying chocolate.

Time for a change

There’s no way I’m going back to being 17 stone. I need to do something about this now.

I’m going to go to a personal trainer.

Firstly, the thought of that is terrifying. Wobbling around under the gaze of a physically fit gentleman terrifies me but I’m beginning to think it’s necessary. I am lazy. I would not go to the gym. There’s no one to scold me for not going and no one keeping up on my progression.

With a personal trainer I’d have to face their disappointment if I got lazy. Guilt would keep me going until I began to enjoy it and it became a habit. I want to be healthy, I want to be able to run 5k and I want to be thin(ner).

I need to get out of this rut and if it means shelling out £120 a month then it doesn’t matter. I need to get back into exercising. I’m growing increasingly miserable in this fat suit.

So rally round ladies and gents. I present to you Feeling Fit – phase two.

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2 Comments

  1. Try not to beat yourself up…you’re on the right track!

    The best thing I ever did for myself was work with a trainer for a year. Luckily, I had a girlfriend who trained with me (our trainer worked with us at the same time), and it really made it so much more affordable.

    What I learned about fitness from my trainer (who was female) I carry with me to they gym to this day, three times a week. I’m more fit than I ever was in my 20s! So yeah, it may such for a while, but in the end, you’ll be glad you did.

    You can do it!

  2. Thank you for the comment! I’m looking forward to my consultation session which is tonight! The guy sounded very nice on the phone and at the moment I’m more excited than nervous.

    I know this will be the best thing I’ve ever done in terms of health. x

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